What I Will

2013
 

 




What I Will
by Suheir Hammad


I will not
dance to your war
drum. I will
not lend my soul nor
my bones to your war
drum. I will
not dance to your
beating. I know that beat.
It is lifeless. I know
intimately that skin
you are hitting. It
was alive once
hunted stolen
stretched. I will
not dance to your drummed
up war. I will not pop
spin break for you. I
will not hate for you or
even hate you. I will
not kill for you. Especially
I will not die
for you. I will not mourn
the dead with murder nor
suicide. I will not side
with you or dance to bombs
because everyone is
dancing. Everyone can be
wrong. Life is a right
not collateral or casual. I
will not forget where
I come from. I
will craft my own drum. Gather my beloved
near, and our chanting
will be dancing. Our
humming will be drumming. I
will not be played. I
will not lend my name
nor my rhythm to your
beat. I will dance
and resist and dance and
persist and dance. This heartbeat is louder than
death. Your war drum ain't
louder than this breath.

 

 

Suheir Hammad: ‘What I Will’ in ZaatarDiva (New York: Cypher, 2005), 60-61.